God is shaping me

I have been thinking: why I had depression; why my visit to the guy caused that fight with my husband? I believe God is shaping me, molding me into a better one. I was self-contemptuous and proud at the same time. I was not 100% commited to my husband. God knows it and I wouldn't admit it, so He is using those things to open my eyes and see myself through. From depression, I know I can do nothing and have to rely on Him, then I am learning to trust Him joyfully. I was not perfectly satisfied with my husband, of course I love him but not with my whole heart, there was something missing. But now I can confidently say I can do it with all my heart and all my mind, it is still a learning process and I am getting better and better. He knows what is best for me, with His unfailing love, patience and discipline, He is giving me an abundant life and I am thankful. I try my best to do my part and He will take care of everything. It is so good to know Him.