My Husband

Oh, Lao Gong, you don't know how much you mean to me, after all these years, after I complained about you all the time, after I made you upset, heart-breaking many times, after I am away from you right now, I know I cannot live without you. Yes, I've taken so much from you and didn't give back to you much, it is like withdraw from a love bank and didn't deposit. I pray to God this will be changed, I am growing up after my 30s, I will learn to be submissive to you, listen to you and respect you from my heart. Your character is so precious to me, I am thankful God has given you to me and I do wish this Labor Day weekend will be different for us. I need God's help to be a gentle wife, be considerate and won't make you angry. Actually I can't promise those nice things but I do ask help from our Lord to build me, to be a better one. To Him, there is nothing impossible, so God, please, please help me, give us a memorable weekend we can talk and cherish later. Dear Lao Gong, you are always there, support me, comfort me, maybe you sometimes were not physically there with me, your heart is there. I do pray God will strengthen you so that you will not be depleted. You've already had a lot of pressure from various ways, and I added it on you, sorry. We are the perfect one for each other, and will always be. I love you and will fill in our love bank from now on. Kiss you.

Tough day

Today it was not easy. I got to school around 8:00am and began the department meeting at 8:30, then from 10:00 the university faculty meeting started and we had luncheon together. Then I was waiting for the computer specialist to help me hook my laptop in the master room but he never showed up. Finally after 4:30pm, a graduate CS student helped me and I was really thankful. We kept asking for the username and password in the classroom in Mass Communication building and no one could help and I had to physically go there again to check the computer and projector to make sure they are ready for my class next Monday. When I came out of the building I almost cried and I was praying that God leads my way and prepare for me. I was typing my teaching notes for the whole afternoon until after 6:00pm, I had to go back and forth from my laptop to my office desktop 'cause there is no Maple on it yet! It took me a long time just to save the figure files from Maple, something was wrong, I always got blank for the EPS files. I also needed to run Matlab to produce the graphs for my slides. I was disappointed that the new PhD program with life science concentration was declined and the other two concentrations haven't been submitted to the board of regions yet. I need to take part in regular seminars in order to keep up my research and I am crossing my figures on that. Finally at 9:00pm I arrived at Belmont United Methodist Church and found the Chinese Bible study 5 minutes before then finished and drove back in the heavy rain. I arrived home after 10:00pm. What a long day! It is raining and we need it. Tomorrow is another day.

Prep for the new semester

Today, finally I finished posting the files to the server and my new webpage is working! Woo! And I began to type my teaching notes using LaTeX and enjoy that so far. I don't know how to draw curves using pstrick but I leave some blanks for students to fill in and keep them motivated and interested. Hopefully by the end of the semester, we will be successful. I checked the classrooms but Maple 11 is not ready yet, I am crossing my fingers and the worst case will be I bring my laptop.

Missing my husband

I miss my husband so much that I cannot describe. We didn't cherish something until we lost it. Fortunately I am close to my husband and I can see him very often. I am so thankful. Hopefully he will find a job in Nashville area and we can settle down.

Moving to Murfreesboro/Nashville

My husband and friends helped me move to the new town and I really appreciate that. Just coming back from Nashville greyhound, I started to miss my husband, thinking of all the good things he did for me. I am sorry I was not gentle to him these past few days, the weather is too hot. We really need some rain to cool us down. I wish to see him very soon, I cannot wait until the next time he sees me, which maybe 10 days or two weeks later. Oh, God, please be with us, guide and lead us. Be humble.

Calm

These days my heart is troubled, uneasy and not peaceful. It is very hot, right now 98F, it has never been like this here. Only when i am reading the Bible, I can feel a little bit better, but the last books by those prophets talking about the punishment from God and made me worried. I wonder where the sin came from? It cannot be from God, but we are created by Him, everything, so .... But I do know God is love, He reveals His love through His beloved son - Jesus, He died for us for our sins. That is enough. I can keep my questions and one day I will understand. Oh, Lord, help me and comfort me, give me peace and joy, because you are the source of them. Let me praise you, with all my heart, under any circumstances, because you love me first. " I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with loving-kindness", Jeremiah 31:3. I feel much better.

San Jose trip

Silicon valley lies all the IT companies. Rocky Mountain on one side, the other side is full of yellow grass. It was a nice meeting and I enjoyed it, but I don't like California. Too noisy, I cannot calm down. I like the green color in Tennessee, wherever I go, I miss the trees in smokies. I am grateful I will go to Murfreesboro, near a big city but we have peace in this small, neat town. Whenever I go on a trip, I miss my husband.